Moving/changing/topsy~turvy

I have missed writing & sharing with you. How fast even the things we love slip from us. How precious time is. I’ve moved to my beloved mountains. Back home where I belong {this side of heaven} and I can’t tell you how good it feels to be here. I knew this was where I belong but had no idea how out of sorts I’ve been for years & years until I got here.

Sometimes life takes you where you had no intention of going and events, relationships, things of your own choosing keep you there. This is all on me. Not blaming anything else or anyone else but me…

However I will say it was all good. ALL GOOD. Even the horrible was good. So if you wake up one morning & ask yourself “how did I get here?” Rest assured it’s for you good, perhaps for completion, restoration, reconciliation, any number of things. If you’re awake & reading this, the last chapter is yet to be written and it will all be worth it.

I’m grateful for then. I’m grateful for now. No regrets. Do I wish it had been different? Yes. Would I change it, absolutely not! You?

Delight in Your Desert.

I liken my life in Alabama to being in a desert. I’ve met many, many wonderful people here. I’ve had some wonderful experiences and folks have been good to us. I’ve gotten to know, love and respect my sister and that surely would have never happened had I not lived here. I had the opportunity to know my Father before he died and to care for him in the years just before he passed.

I had the opportunity to do the right thing(s) regardless of how I’ve been treated all my life which allowed many deep wounds from my childhood to be dealt with and healed. I’ve learned through asking for the truth to be revealed and when it was it was as ugly as I feared it would be ~ but once exposed it can’t hurt me anymore. Truth is better (no matter how painful) than the lies of a lifetime.

I’ve seen God, face to face, and I know Him intimately through the circumstances and I’ve learned complete trust in Him. I’ve learned what it’s like to have only Him to cling to, rely on and His love for me is more than enough. MORE than enough. I’ve learned that the choices made in a desert experience are critical because they determine whether you live or die there…not literally perhaps but spiritually for sure. You can keep crawling, digging through, and stepping one tiny step at a time going on nothing but trust in God to see you through until you’re through it or you can give up and give in because it’s just too hard. You can pick a place and make a home in the wilderness and settle or you can choose to believe and be compelled to keep moving until you know you’re through it.

It’s not that I don’t like Alabama nor have I been discontent. I just don’t belong here. I had to be here to be restored & healed so I could be able to go from here. Those who don’t know me & our history won’t understand that. I’ve learned to be content whatever my circumstance and that in itself was worth the 26 years of the desert!

If you’re in a “dry place” I pray you have Jesus in your life & have a relationship with Him. Frankly I don’t know how anyone could survive…or would want to survive…without Him being with you through it. I so get why people do crazy things so much better & I have learned not to judge. Desert walking is extreme, in extreme circumstances. Desperate people do desperate things; thus the results we see in our world today.

I’m grateful for every single moment of these past 26 years. I’m grateful for the friends and my sisters (one of which is in heaven) who walked with me and loved me through. I’m grateful to God for being my Guide, my Teacher, my Redeemer, my Restorer, my Spring of Life, my Comfort, my Provider, and my Healer (to name a few) every second and every step.

Don’t give up if you’re in that place and try to see and believe it’s for your good because it surely is or you wouldn’t be there. God bless you.

Driving Me Craaaazy

I must be the most computer-illiterate person in the world…I can’t get WordPress to work on my laptop. Been trying for hours until I finally took a hammer to it then chunked out the window. Not really…but don’t think I didn’t seriously consider that.

What’s SO HILARIOUS about this is I had written this God-inspired blog to share with you about bringing God-mountaintop moments down into our real world incorporating His inspiration(s) into our everyday lives, the difference that makes,etc…not leaving what we learned “up there” (if you know what I mean)…

Then the computer set me nuts. I almost got reallllly ugly. Almost did chunk it through the window then had to stop and hoarse laughed at myself hearing that steady beeep in my head. You know the one: this is a test, this is only a test…beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppp……….

When will I ever learn that the enemy will use EVERYTHING to steal our joy (just like my blog said by the way)…..

Don’t let him trick you! Don’t let the enemy do what he’s sent to do today (steal, kill, destroy).

Okay now, back to trying to get WP to wok on my laptop. Have a great day! :-)

SHUT UP!

There’s lots and lots of pressure these days right? We have an insatiable need to let people know how we’re feeling and what we think about what’s going on in current affairs, etc. Talk, talk, talk, fuss, fuss fuss. It’s like there’s another person inside of me that takes over and she just won’t be quiet. She feels it’s important to share her opinion and chime in to every post, every tweet…so much so I’ve had to turn it off several times so I would just shut up!

I sometimes think to myself,”I must respond to that, I’m the great revealer of THE TRUTH” so I let it rip.  There’s nothing wrong with blowing off a little steam, we all do it, especially with all these avenues available to us now through which we can indulge ourselves.

I’ve found that if I keep the ball rolling, the current issues are constantly on my mind and if it’s something I don’t agree with I’m constantly anxious (or whatever emotion the topic makes me feel) and my feelings tend to explode from my mouth or my fingers as the case may be. Sometimes I’ve regretted the end result.

In my God time this morning, I read Philippians 4…and the “Light” was especially bright on verse 8: “Finally brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, DWELL ON THESE THINGS.” (Emphasis mine). 

Here’s what I think (ha, here I go again) :-)

I think about how I FEEL too much. That’s the problem, and that’s where I get messed up. There are many things going on in our world that push our buttons and we respond just like everyone else. There’s the other problem.

I’m responsible for keeping MY peace AND the peace around me. You are too, if you belong to Jesus. I’m supposed to be different (as are you). We’re to be HIS examples of the strength, peace, kindness, in our corners that HE displays through us…if we choose to let Him be displayed. We have the chance to live in this chaotic and scary world as examples of the difference Jesus makes in the lives of everyday people.

The lost need to see (not just hear) the difference Jesus makes in the chaos and uncertainty. We don’t need to sound like everybody else but more importantly we shouldn’t look like everyone else. How we handle what we’re going through could make the difference in someone’s life.

I’m going to shut up, try my best to keep how I feel to myself and walk in/live in the “peace that passes all understanding” given to me by Jesus like I believe it.  Will you? People don’t need my opinions. They need His peace!